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After that, she went to her room and sat down before her three-leaved mirror. There was where she nearly always sat when she came into her room, if she had nothing in mind to do. She went to that chair as naturally as a dog goes to his corner. She leaned forward, observing her profile; gravity seemed to be her mood. But after a long, almost motionless scrutiny, she began to produce dramatic sketches upon that ever-ready stage, her countenance: she showed gaiety, satire, doubt, gentleness, appreciation of a companion and love-in-hiding--all studied in profile first, then repeated for a “three-quarter view.” Subsequently she ran through them, facing herself in full. In this manner she outlined a playful scenario for her next interview with Arthur Russell; but grew solemn again, thinking of the impression she had already sought to give him. She had no twinges for any underminings of her “most intimate friend”--in fact, she felt that her work on a new portrait of Mildred for Mr. Russell had been honest and accurate. But why had it been her instinct to show him an Alice Adams who didn't exist? Almost everything she had said to him was upon spontaneous impulse, springing to her lips on the instant; yet it all seemed to have been founded upon a careful design, as if some hidden self kept such designs in stock and handed them up to her, ready-made, to be used for its own purpose. What appeared to be the desired result...
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Summary
Alice sits before her mirror, practicing expressions and personas for her next meeting with Arthur Russell. She realizes she's been presenting a false version of herself to him—not through conscious deception, but through some hidden part of her personality that automatically creates appealing lies. This disturbing self-awareness leads to a moment of terror when she asks her reflection 'Who in the world are you?' and sees something strange and mocking staring back. At dinner, her brother Walter teases her about being seen with Russell downtown, revealing gossip that Russell is wealthy and expected to marry Mildred Palmer, inheriting a business empire. This news troubles their mother, who sees it as another missed opportunity for Alice. The conversation shifts to the family's ongoing financial struggles, and Mrs. Adams reveals her persistent belief that her husband could make them wealthy through a secret glue formula he possesses. Alice has always dismissed this as her mother's foolish fantasy, but learns more details: Adams co-invented a valuable glue formula with a now-dead partner, and Mrs. Adams believes he's selfishly refusing to use it to start a factory that could transform their lives. The chapter ends with Alice beginning to wonder if there might be truth to her mother's claims, just as someone rings their doorbell.
That's what happens. To understand what the author is really doing—and to discuss this chapter with confidence—keep reading.
Terms to Know
Social climbing
The practice of trying to move up in social class or status, often by associating with wealthy or influential people. In Alice's time, this was especially difficult for women who had limited ways to improve their circumstances.
Modern Usage:
We see this today in people who name-drop, buy designer items they can't afford, or carefully curate their social media to appear more successful than they are.
Persona
A false or artificial version of yourself that you present to others. Alice practices different personalities in the mirror, creating a fake version of herself for Arthur Russell.
Modern Usage:
Like having different versions of yourself for work, dating apps, or social media - the 'professional you' versus the 'real you' at home.
Marriageable prospects
In Alice's era, a woman's entire future depended on marrying well, as they couldn't easily support themselves. Men were evaluated as potential husbands based on their wealth and social standing.
Modern Usage:
Today we might call this 'dating up' or looking for a partner who can provide financial security, though women now have more independence.
Trade secrets
Valuable business information or formulas that companies keep confidential to maintain their competitive advantage. Adams knows a glue formula that could make him wealthy.
Modern Usage:
Like proprietary software code, secret recipes (Coca-Cola), or specialized techniques that give businesses their edge.
Family delusions
Shared fantasies or unrealistic beliefs that families maintain about their situation or potential. Mrs. Adams believes they could be wealthy if her husband would use his glue formula.
Modern Usage:
Like families who think they'll win the lottery, believe a relative will leave them money, or convince themselves their struggling business will suddenly take off.
Self-deception
The act of lying to yourself or refusing to see the truth about your situation. Alice realizes she's been automatically creating false versions of herself without conscious thought.
Modern Usage:
Like telling yourself you're 'networking' when you're really just gossiping, or believing you're 'almost ready' to start that diet or exercise routine.
Characters in This Chapter
Alice Adams
Protagonist
Has a disturbing moment of self-awareness when she realizes she's been presenting a false version of herself to Arthur Russell. She's also beginning to question her mother's claims about the family's potential wealth.
Modern Equivalent:
The person who realizes they've been fake on social media and wonders who they really are underneath all the performance.
Arthur Russell
Love interest
The wealthy man Alice is trying to impress with a false persona. He's reportedly expected to marry Mildred Palmer and inherit a business empire, making him an even more valuable catch.
Modern Equivalent:
The successful guy everyone wants to date who probably has no idea people are performing for his attention.
Walter Adams
Alice's brother
Teases Alice about being seen with Russell and reveals gossip about Russell's wealth and expected marriage to Mildred Palmer. His casual comments create anxiety for both Alice and their mother.
Modern Equivalent:
The sibling who drops uncomfortable truths and gossip at the dinner table without realizing the impact.
Mrs. Adams
Alice's mother
Becomes agitated learning about Russell's wealth and expected marriage to someone else. Reveals her persistent belief that her husband could make them wealthy using a secret glue formula he possesses.
Modern Equivalent:
The parent who's convinced the family could be rich if only one person would take action on their 'brilliant' idea.
Mildred Palmer
Alice's romantic rival
Though not physically present, she looms large as Alice's 'most intimate friend' who is reportedly expected to marry Arthur Russell and inherit wealth. Alice has been subtly undermining her to Russell.
Modern Equivalent:
The friend who seems to have everything you want and doesn't even know you're competing with them.
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches how to recognize when someone (including yourself) is presenting a manufactured personality versus their genuine self.
Practice This Today
This week, notice when you edit your personality in real-time during conversations—catch yourself emphasizing interests you don't really have or downplaying struggles you actually face.
You have the foundation. Now let's look closer.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"Who in the world are you?"
Context: Alice asks this of her reflection after realizing she's been presenting false versions of herself
This moment of terror reveals Alice's growing awareness that she's lost touch with her authentic self. She's been so focused on performing for others that she doesn't know who she really is underneath all the personas.
In Today's Words:
Who am I really when I'm not trying to impress anyone?
"What appeared to be the desired result was to make him think her an altogether superior and fascinating person"
Context: Describing Alice's unconscious motivation for creating false personas
This reveals how Alice's deception isn't calculated but instinctive - she automatically becomes whoever she thinks will be most appealing. It shows the exhausting pressure women felt to be perfect for potential suitors.
In Today's Words:
She just wanted him to think she was amazing and interesting.
"Your father could make us all rich if he wanted to"
Context: Revealing her belief about the secret glue formula
This shows Mrs. Adams' frustration and her belief that their poverty is a choice rather than circumstance. It reveals the family tension around missed opportunities and different views of what's possible.
In Today's Words:
Your dad could fix all our money problems if he'd just stop being stubborn.
Intelligence Amplifier™ Analysis
The Road of False Selves
When we desperately want acceptance, we unconsciously create appealing false versions of ourselves that ultimately prevent genuine connection.
Thematic Threads
Identity
In This Chapter
Alice discovers she's been unconsciously presenting a false self to Arthur Russell
Development
Evolved from earlier social performances to this moment of terrifying self-awareness
In Your Life:
You might recognize this when you realize you've been editing your personality around certain people or in specific situations.
Class
In This Chapter
News of Russell's wealth and expected inheritance highlights the social gap Alice faces
Development
Deepened from general social anxiety to specific awareness of economic barriers
In Your Life:
You see this when wealth differences make you feel you need to prove your worth differently.
Family Secrets
In This Chapter
Mrs. Adams reveals details about her husband's secret glue formula and their potential wealth
Development
Introduced here as a new layer to the family's financial struggles
In Your Life:
You might experience this when family members withhold information that could change everyone's circumstances.
Self-Deception
In This Chapter
Alice has dismissed her mother's claims as fantasy but now questions what might be true
Development
Building from Alice's social self-deception to family-wide denial patterns
In Your Life:
You encounter this when you realize you've been dismissing possibilities because they seemed too good or too painful to consider.
Gossip
In This Chapter
Walter brings home neighborhood talk about Russell's wealth and marriage prospects
Development
Continues the theme of how community knowledge shapes individual choices
In Your Life:
You see this when workplace or neighborhood gossip forces you to confront uncomfortable truths about your situation.
Modern Adaptation
When the Promotion Goes Sideways
Following Alice's story...
Alice sits in her car outside the office building, practicing how she'll act when she sees Marcus from accounting again. Yesterday at the coffee shop, she'd somehow found herself talking about weekend trips to wine country and her 'consulting work'—none of which exists. She'd watched his eyes light up with interest and felt that familiar rush of being seen as someone worth knowing. Now, staring at her reflection in the rearview mirror, she feels sick. Who was that person talking? At her temp desk, her phone buzzes with gossip from another temp: Marcus is dating the regional manager's daughter and they're talking engagement. Alice's stomach drops. Later, her roommate mentions seeing a job posting for a permanent position at Marcus's company—decent pay, benefits, the kind of stability Alice has been chasing. But it would require references from professional contacts Alice doesn't actually have. Her mother calls, insisting Alice should ask her father for help with his old business connections, contacts Alice has always assumed were her mother's fantasies. Maybe it's time to find out what's real.
The Road
The road Alice Adams walked in 1921, Alice walks today. The pattern is identical: desperation creates false selves that feel more appealing than our authentic reality, trapping us in performances we can't sustain.
The Map
This chapter provides a mirror for recognizing when we're performing instead of being. Alice can use it to catch herself in the moment of automatic self-editing and choose authenticity over approval.
Amplification
Before reading this, Alice might have continued the exhausting cycle of creating false personas for each new opportunity. Now she can NAME the pattern of desperate performance, PREDICT how it leads to isolation, and NAVIGATE toward genuine connections that don't require constant acting.
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
What does Alice discover about herself when she practices in the mirror, and why does this realization terrify her?
analysis • surface - 2
Why does Alice's 'hidden part of her personality' automatically create appealing lies around Arthur Russell, even though she's not consciously trying to deceive him?
analysis • medium - 3
Where do you see people today presenting false versions of themselves to gain acceptance or opportunities? What triggers this behavior?
application • medium - 4
When you catch yourself 'performing' instead of being authentic, what strategies could help you return to your genuine self without losing the connection you're trying to build?
application • deep - 5
What does Alice's mirror scene reveal about the relationship between desperation and self-deception? How does wanting something badly change how we present ourselves?
reflection • deep
Critical Thinking Exercise
Map Your Performance Triggers
Think of a recent situation where you felt the need to present a 'better' version of yourself—maybe in a job interview, on a date, or meeting new people. Write down what you emphasized, downplayed, or completely invented about yourself. Then identify what you were afraid your authentic self wasn't good enough for.
Consider:
- •Notice the gap between your performed self and your authentic self—how much energy does maintaining that gap require?
- •Consider whether the person or situation actually required you to be false, or if that was your assumption
- •Think about what you lose when someone only accepts your performed version rather than your real self
Journaling Prompt
Write about a time when someone accepted you at your most authentic—flaws and all. How did that feel different from relationships where you felt you had to perform? What made that acceptance possible?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 12: The Weight of Expectations
The coming pages reveal genuine kindness can mask uncomfortable power dynamics in relationships, and teach us self-deception about our circumstances becomes harder to maintain under pressure. These discoveries help us navigate similar situations in our own lives.