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He did not know whether it was late or early. The candles had all burned out. Dolly had just been in the study and had suggested to the doctor that he should lie down. Levin sat listening to the doctor’s stories of a quack mesmerizer and looking at the ashes of his cigarette. There had been a period of repose, and he had sunk into oblivion. He had completely forgotten what was going on now. He heard the doctor’s chat and understood it. Suddenly there came an unearthly shriek. The shriek was so awful that Levin did not even jump up, but holding his breath, gazed in terrified inquiry at the doctor. The doctor put his head on one side, listened, and smiled approvingly. Everything was so extraordinary that nothing could strike Levin as strange. “I suppose it must be so,” he thought, and still sat where he was. Whose scream was this? He jumped up, ran on tiptoe to the bedroom, edged round Lizaveta Petrovna and the princess, and took up his position at Kitty’s pillow. The scream had subsided, but there was some change now. What it was he did not see and did not comprehend, and he had no wish to see or comprehend. But he saw it by the face of Lizaveta Petrovna. Lizaveta Petrovna’s face was stern and pale, and still as resolute, though her jaws were twitching, and her eyes were fixed intently on Kitty. Kitty’s swollen and agonized face, a tress of hair...
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Summary
Levin finds himself completely transformed by his spiritual awakening, but struggles to translate this inner change into his daily life. He discovers that while his revelation about living for God rather than himself feels profound and true, it doesn't magically solve his practical problems or eliminate his human flaws. He still gets irritated with servants, still worries about money, still feels frustrated with everyday annoyances. This gap between spiritual insight and messy reality initially disappoints him, but gradually he realizes this is exactly how faith is supposed to work - not as a magic cure, but as a quiet foundation that gives meaning to ordinary life. The chapter shows Levin learning that true spiritual growth isn't about becoming perfect or having constant religious feelings, but about finding purpose and direction even in mundane moments. He begins to understand that his love for his family, his care for his peasants, and his work on the land are all expressions of this deeper truth he's discovered. This represents Tolstoy's own philosophy about authentic faith - that it's found not in grand gestures or constant emotional highs, but in the patient, loving attention we bring to everyday responsibilities. For readers like Rosie juggling work, family, and personal growth, this chapter offers a realistic view of how meaningful change actually happens: gradually, imperfectly, but genuinely, as we learn to see ordinary tasks as opportunities to live out our deeper values rather than just get through another day.
That's what happens. To understand what the author is really doing—and to discuss this chapter with confidence—keep reading.
Terms to Know
Spiritual awakening
A moment of profound realization about life's meaning that changes how someone sees everything. In Levin's case, understanding that living for God rather than himself gives his life purpose. These experiences feel life-changing but don't automatically fix daily problems.
Modern Usage:
Today we might call this 'finding your purpose' or having a breakthrough in therapy that shifts your whole perspective.
Orthodox Christianity
The dominant form of Christianity in 19th-century Russia, emphasizing tradition, community worship, and finding God through everyday life rather than dramatic religious experiences. Tolstoy was exploring how real faith works in ordinary moments.
Modern Usage:
Similar to how people today talk about 'practical spirituality' - living your values through daily actions rather than just Sunday services.
Peasant class
The vast majority of Russians who worked the land and lived in poverty under the control of wealthy landowners like Levin. Their welfare was entirely dependent on their master's character and decisions.
Modern Usage:
Today's equivalent might be hourly workers whose quality of life depends heavily on whether they have good or bad managers.
Estate management
Running a large agricultural property with hundreds of workers and their families. This involved everything from crop decisions to housing, medical care, and dispute resolution for the peasants who lived there.
Modern Usage:
Like being responsible for a large team or department where your decisions affect people's livelihoods and families.
Existential crisis
Deep questioning about whether life has meaning or purpose, often triggered by major life changes or losses. Levin struggled with feeling his life was pointless despite having wealth and status.
Modern Usage:
What we now call a 'quarter-life crisis' or 'mid-life crisis' - that feeling of 'Is this all there is?' that hits during major transitions.
Faith vs. emotion
Tolstoy's idea that real faith isn't about constant religious feelings or dramatic experiences, but about a quiet foundation that gives meaning to ordinary work and relationships, even when you don't feel particularly spiritual.
Modern Usage:
Like the difference between motivation (which comes and goes) and discipline (showing up consistently regardless of how you feel).
Characters in This Chapter
Levin
Protagonist experiencing spiritual transformation
Struggles to bridge the gap between his profound spiritual revelation and the messy reality of daily life. Still gets annoyed with servants and worried about money despite his newfound faith, which initially disappoints him but ultimately teaches him that real change happens gradually.
Modern Equivalent:
The person who has a major breakthrough in therapy but still struggles with old patterns in daily life
Kitty
Levin's wife and anchor
Represents the ordinary love and family responsibilities that Levin learns are actually expressions of his deeper spiritual truth. Through caring for her, he discovers that mundane acts of love are sacred.
Modern Equivalent:
The partner who helps you stay grounded when you're going through major personal changes
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches how to recognize authentic personal growth by looking for subtle shifts in response patterns rather than expecting dramatic personality changes.
Practice This Today
This week, notice when you handle a familiar frustration slightly differently than usual—recovering faster, catching yourself earlier, or making a better choice despite feeling the same emotions.
You have the foundation. Now let's look closer.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"I shall still get angry with the coachman in the same way, I shall dispute in the same way, I shall inopportunely express my thoughts; there will still be a wall between my soul's holy of holies and other people."
Context: Levin realizes his spiritual awakening hasn't made him perfect
This honest admission shows that real spiritual growth doesn't eliminate human flaws or make daily life effortless. Levin's disappointment reflects a common misconception that meaningful change should be dramatic and immediate.
In Today's Words:
I'm still going to lose my temper with difficult people and say the wrong thing sometimes - having a breakthrough doesn't make me a saint.
"But my life now, my whole life, regardless of all that may happen to me, every minute of it, is not only not meaningless, as it was before, but has the unquestionable meaning of the good which it is in my power to put into it."
Context: Levin understands how his revelation changes everything while changing nothing
This captures the paradox of authentic spiritual growth - external circumstances stay the same, but the meaning and purpose behind actions transforms completely. It's not about what you do, but why you do it.
In Today's Words:
My daily routine looks the same, but now I know why I'm doing it - every moment is a chance to do something good.
"The meaning of my life and of all existence is not to be sought in my personal happiness, but in something higher."
Context: The core realization that transforms his perspective
This shift from self-centered to purpose-centered living is what gives Levin peace. It doesn't mean ignoring personal needs, but finding fulfillment through contribution rather than consumption.
In Today's Words:
Life isn't about making myself happy - it's about being part of something bigger than myself.
Intelligence Amplifier™ Analysis
The Road of Real Change
The distance between how we think positive change should feel and how real transformation actually works in daily life.
Thematic Threads
Personal Growth
In This Chapter
Levin learns that spiritual awakening doesn't eliminate human flaws but provides new context for them
Development
Evolution from his earlier search for meaning to understanding how meaning actually operates in practice
In Your Life:
You might recognize this when self-improvement efforts don't immediately change how you feel or react
Authenticity
In This Chapter
True faith expresses itself through ordinary responsibilities rather than grand religious feelings
Development
Builds on Levin's rejection of social pretense to embrace genuine spiritual practice
In Your Life:
You might see this in choosing to be real about your struggles rather than pretending everything's fine
Work
In This Chapter
Levin's care for peasants and land becomes an expression of his deeper spiritual understanding
Development
Transforms his earlier view of work as burden into work as meaningful service
In Your Life:
You might find this when your job feels more purposeful because you see how it serves others
Family
In This Chapter
Love for family becomes a practical way to live out spiritual truth rather than just emotional attachment
Development
Deepens his earlier struggles with marriage into understanding love as spiritual practice
In Your Life:
You might experience this when caring for family feels like expressing your deepest values, not just obligation
Class
In This Chapter
Levin's responsibility to peasants reflects spiritual duty rather than social obligation
Development
Evolves from his critique of aristocratic uselessness to finding meaningful engagement with social responsibility
In Your Life:
You might recognize this when you feel genuine care for people you serve at work, not just professional duty
Modern Adaptation
When the Spiritual High Crashes
Following Anna's story...
Anna has been attending grief counseling after her mother's death, and last month she had a breakthrough moment where everything suddenly made sense—she felt connected to something larger, purposeful for the first time in years. She expected this feeling to carry her through daily life, but now she's back to snapping at her son when he leaves dishes in the sink, feeling overwhelmed by legal briefs, and questioning whether her demanding career is worth the sacrifice. The profound sense of meaning she felt in therapy seems to have evaporated, leaving her wondering if she imagined the whole thing. She's frustrated that her 'spiritual awakening' didn't translate into being a more patient mother or finding her work more fulfilling. But slowly, she's beginning to notice small changes—she recovers faster from bad days, she's more present during bedtime stories with her son, and she approaches difficult cases with slightly more compassion. The revelation wasn't supposed to eliminate her struggles; it was supposed to give them context and meaning.
The Road
The road Levin walked in 1877, Anna walks today. The pattern is identical: expecting spiritual insight to function like a magic cure, then learning that real transformation happens gradually through how we approach ordinary responsibilities, not through the elimination of life's daily friction.
The Map
This chapter provides a navigation tool for managing the disappointment that follows personal breakthroughs. Anna can use it to measure progress by small course corrections rather than dramatic personality changes.
Amplification
Before reading this, Anna might have judged her spiritual growth by how she felt moment to moment, getting discouraged when old patterns resurfaced. Now she can NAME the expectation gap, PREDICT the disappointment that follows unrealistic hopes for instant transformation, and NAVIGATE growth with patience instead of perfectionism.
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
Why does Levin feel disappointed after his spiritual awakening when he still gets irritated and worried about everyday things?
analysis • surface - 2
What's the difference between expecting change to eliminate your problems versus expecting it to give you a foundation for handling them?
analysis • medium - 3
Think about a time you tried to improve yourself - learning a skill, changing a habit, or working on personal growth. Where do you see this same gap between expectations and reality?
application • medium - 4
How would you counsel someone who's discouraged because they still struggle with old patterns after making a commitment to change?
application • deep - 5
What does Levin's experience teach us about the difference between genuine transformation and the quick fixes we often hope for?
reflection • deep
Critical Thinking Exercise
Track Your Real Progress
Think of an area where you've been working to improve - whether it's patience, health habits, communication, or work skills. Instead of measuring progress by how you feel, map out the small changes in how you actually handle situations. Write down three specific examples of different choices you've made recently, even if the underlying emotions or challenges remain the same.
Consider:
- •Look for subtle shifts in timing - do you catch yourself earlier, recover faster, or pause before reacting?
- •Notice changes in choices rather than changes in feelings - what do you do differently even when feeling the same way?
- •Consider whether your expectations about how change should feel might be creating unnecessary discouragement
Journaling Prompt
Write about a time when you almost gave up on positive change because you expected it to feel different than it did. What would you tell your past self about the real timeline of transformation?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 205
In the next chapter, you'll discover key events and character development in this chapter, and learn thematic elements and literary techniques. These insights reveal timeless patterns that resonate in our own lives and relationships.