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CHAPTER XI. TREATS OF HOW GOD INSPIRES THE SOUL WITH SUCH VEHEMENT AND IMPETUOUS DESIRES OF SEEING HIM AS TO ENDANGER LIFE. THE BENEFITS RESULTING FROM THIS DIVINE GRACE. 1. Favours increase the soul's desire for God. 2. The dart of love. 3. Spiritual sufferings produced. 4. Its physical effects. S. Torture of the desire for God. 6. These sufferings are a purgatory. 7. The torments of hell. 8. St. Teresa's painful desire after God. 9. This suffering irresistible. 10. Effects of the dart of love. 11. Two spiritual dangers to life. 12. Courage needed here and given by our Lord. 1. WILL all these graces bestowed by the Spouse upon the soul suffice to content this little dove or butterfly (you see I have not forgotten her after all!) so that she may settle down and rest in the place where she is to die? No indeed: her state is far worse than ever; although she has been receiving these favours for many years past, she still sighs and weeps because each grace augments her pain. She sees herself still far away from God, yet with her increased knowledge of His attributes her longing and her love for Him grow ever stronger as she learns more fully how this great God and Sovereign deserves to be loved. As, year by year her yearning after Him gradually becomes keener, she experiences the bitter suffering I am about to describe. I speak of years' because relating what happened to the person...
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Summary
Teresa describes the most intense spiritual suffering she has encountered—a sudden, overwhelming longing for God that strikes like a fiery dart. This isn't metaphorical poetry; she details real physical effects: dislocated joints, weakened pulse, days of recovery. The soul becomes like someone suspended in mid-air, unable to touch earth or reach heaven, tormented by an unquenchable thirst for the divine. What makes this chapter remarkable is Teresa's unflinching honesty about spiritual life's darker valleys. She doesn't romanticize mystical experience but shows how growth often requires enduring what feels unbearable. The person experiencing this dart of love cannot resist or control it—reason fails, willpower crumbles, and only God can provide relief through trance or vision. Yet Teresa insists this suffering serves a purpose: it purifies the soul like purgatory cleanses spirits bound for heaven. She compares it to the torments of hell, but notes a crucial difference—this pain has meaning, leads somewhere, and comes with divine consolation. The soul emerges transformed: fearless of future crosses, more detached from worldly comfort, more careful not to offend God. Teresa warns that two spiritual states can endanger life—this overwhelming longing and its opposite, excessive spiritual joy. Both require courage to endure. She ends by referencing Christ's question to the disciples: 'Can you drink the chalice that I shall drink?' suggesting that true spiritual advancement demands we face our deepest fears and desires.
That's what happens. To understand what the author is really doing—and to discuss this chapter with confidence—keep reading.
Terms to Know
Dart of Love
Teresa's metaphor for sudden, overwhelming spiritual longing that strikes like a fiery arrow. She describes it as causing real physical pain and dislocating joints. This isn't gentle religious feeling but an intense, uncontrollable experience.
Modern Usage:
We see this pattern in any overwhelming desire that hits suddenly - falling in love, grief, or intense career ambition that consumes everything.
Spiritual Purgatory
Teresa compares intense spiritual suffering to purgatory - painful purification that serves a purpose. Unlike meaningless suffering, this pain transforms the soul and prepares it for something greater.
Modern Usage:
Like going through a difficult divorce or losing a job - painful experiences that ultimately lead to growth and better life choices.
Mystical Marriage
The ultimate spiritual union Teresa describes throughout the book, where the soul becomes one with God. This chapter shows the intense longing that precedes this final state.
Modern Usage:
Similar to any deep relationship goal that requires sacrifice and growth - like a marriage that demands you become your best self.
Rapture
An involuntary mystical state where the soul is lifted beyond normal consciousness. Teresa describes it as the only relief from the dart of love's torment - God must intervene to provide peace.
Modern Usage:
Like those moments of complete absorption in something meaningful - losing track of time while helping others or creating something important.
Suspension
Teresa's term for being caught between two states - unable to find comfort in earthly things but not yet united with God. Like hanging in mid-air with nowhere to land.
Modern Usage:
That feeling of being stuck between life phases - no longer satisfied with your old life but not yet established in your new one.
Divine Consolation
Comfort that comes directly from God during intense spiritual suffering. Teresa emphasizes this makes spiritual pain different from worldly suffering - it has meaning and divine support.
Modern Usage:
Like finding unexpected strength during crisis, or feeling supported by something bigger than yourself during difficult times.
Characters in This Chapter
The Soul
Protagonist experiencing transformation
Represents the person undergoing intense spiritual longing. Teresa describes how this soul suffers physically and emotionally from overwhelming desire for God, yet grows stronger through the experience.
Modern Equivalent:
Someone going through major life changes who feels torn between their old life and new calling
The Spouse (Christ)
Divine beloved
The object of the soul's intense longing. Paradoxically, the more graces He gives, the more the soul desires Him. He provides both the wound and the healing through rapture.
Modern Equivalent:
The life goal or relationship that becomes more compelling the closer you get to it
The Little Dove/Butterfly
Symbol of the restless soul
Teresa's recurring metaphor for the soul that cannot find rest despite receiving many spiritual favors. Shows how growth creates new forms of dissatisfaction.
Modern Equivalent:
The person who keeps achieving goals but still feels unsettled and wants something more meaningful
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches how to recognize when intense longing or suffering serves a purpose versus when it's just wearing you down.
Practice This Today
This week, notice when you feel intense desire or frustration—ask yourself: Is this teaching me something about what I need to change or develop, or is it just repeating the same cycle without growth?
You have the foundation. Now let's look closer.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"Will all these graces bestowed by the Spouse upon the soul suffice to content this little dove or butterfly so that she may settle down and rest in the place where she is to die? No indeed: her state is far worse than ever."
Context: Opening the chapter to explain how spiritual progress paradoxically increases suffering
Teresa reveals that getting what we want spiritually often makes us want more, not less. Success breeds deeper longing rather than satisfaction. This challenges the assumption that spiritual growth brings peace.
In Today's Words:
You'd think all these good things would make her happy and settled, but actually she's more restless than ever.
"She experiences the bitter suffering I am about to describe. I speak of years' because relating what happened to the person I know best."
Context: Teresa hints she's describing her own experience while maintaining third-person narrative
This reveals Teresa's literary strategy - using third person to describe intensely personal experiences. It shows her humility and desire to make her experience universally applicable rather than self-focused.
In Today's Words:
She goes through some really tough stuff that I'm about to tell you about - and I know because I've been there myself.
"The soul is like a person hanging in mid-air, who can neither touch the earth nor ascend to heaven."
Context: Describing the torment of spiritual suspension
This vivid metaphor captures the agony of being between two worlds - no longer satisfied with ordinary life but not yet achieving spiritual union. It's about the painful middle ground of transformation.
In Today's Words:
It's like being stuck hanging in space - you can't go back to your old life, but you can't reach your new one either.
Intelligence Amplifier™ Analysis
The Road of Transformative Suffering
Intense longing that feels unbearable but serves to burn away non-essentials and create capacity for what you actually need.
Thematic Threads
Personal Growth
In This Chapter
Growth through intense spiritual suffering that physically affects Teresa, showing that real transformation often requires enduring what feels unbearable
Development
Evolved from earlier gentle spiritual experiences to this most intense form of purification
In Your Life:
You might recognize this when pursuing a goal requires you to endure discomfort that feels almost too intense to bear.
Identity
In This Chapter
The soul suspended between earth and heaven, unable to find footing in either realm, representing identity crisis during transformation
Development
Builds on earlier themes of losing old identity to find true self
In Your Life:
You might experience this during major life transitions when you're no longer who you were but not yet who you're becoming.
Class
In This Chapter
Teresa's honest account of physical effects challenges romanticized notions of spiritual experience, showing the real cost of transformation
Development
Continues Teresa's pattern of demystifying spiritual experience for ordinary people
In Your Life:
You might relate to this when your aspirations for advancement come with physical and emotional costs that others don't see.
Human Relationships
In This Chapter
The relationship between soul and God becomes so intense it affects all other relationships, showing how deep transformation impacts all connections
Development
Intensifies earlier themes about how spiritual growth changes human interactions
In Your Life:
You might notice this when personal growth creates distance from people who knew the old version of you.
Modern Adaptation
When You Want It So Bad It Hurts
Following Sarah's story...
Maya stares at the nursing program acceptance letter she can't afford, the longing so intense it makes her chest tight. She's been a home health aide for three years, watching nurses do what she dreams of doing, the gap between where she is and where she wants to be becoming physically painful. Some nights she can't sleep, her body actually aching with the desire to help people in ways her current job won't allow. She's applied for scholarships, worked overtime until exhaustion, saved every penny, but it's still not enough. The wanting has become so overwhelming that her supervisor noticed her distraction, her friends avoid her obsessive talk about nursing school, and she's lost weight from the stress. Yet she can't stop wanting it. The intensity frightens her—this isn't normal disappointment, it's something that's rewiring her entire system. She finds herself unable to enjoy anything else, unable to think about anything else, suspended between her current reality and her impossible dream.
The Road
The road Teresa walked in 1577, Maya walks today. The pattern is identical: transformative longing that becomes so intense it threatens to break you, yet that very intensity is what burns away everything non-essential and creates the capacity to receive what you're seeking.
The Map
This chapter provides a navigation tool for distinguishing meaningful suffering from meaningless suffering. Maya can use it to recognize when intense longing serves a transformative purpose versus when it's just destructive.
Amplification
Before reading this, Maya might have thought her overwhelming desire was unhealthy and tried to suppress it or settle for less. Now she can NAME it as transformative longing, PREDICT that the intensity will either burn away what's blocking her path or teach her what she actually needs, and NAVIGATE it by enduring without numbing while staying alert to what it's teaching her.
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
Teresa describes physical symptoms from spiritual longing—dislocated joints, weakened pulse, days of recovery. What's the difference between suffering that transforms you and suffering that just hurts?
analysis • surface - 2
Why does Teresa say the person experiencing this 'dart of love' cannot resist or control it? What happens when reason and willpower fail us?
analysis • medium - 3
Where do you see this pattern of 'burning longing' in modern life—wanting something so intensely it physically hurts but also drives transformation?
application • medium - 4
Teresa warns that both overwhelming longing and excessive joy can be dangerous. How do you tell the difference between meaningful intensity and destructive obsession?
application • deep - 5
She compares this suffering to purgatory—painful but purposeful. What does this suggest about the role of discomfort in personal growth?
reflection • deep
Critical Thinking Exercise
Map Your Burning Longing
Think of something you want so intensely it keeps you awake at night or makes you physically uncomfortable. Draw a simple map: What you want on one side, where you are now on the other. In the gap between them, list what this longing has already taught you or changed about you. Then identify one concrete action this burning feeling is pushing you toward.
Consider:
- •Not all intense desires are worth pursuing—some are just distractions or addictions
- •Meaningful longing usually involves becoming someone different, not just getting something
- •The intensity itself might be preparing you for what you're seeking
Journaling Prompt
Write about a time when wanting something desperately actually changed you for the better, even before you got it. What did the longing itself teach you?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 23: The Ultimate Union: When God Moves In
What lies ahead teaches us to recognize when you've reached your deepest potential for connection, and shows us the most profound experiences can't be forced or controlled. These patterns appear in literature and life alike.