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CHAPTER XX. “A child forsaken, waking suddenly, Whose gaze afeard on all things round doth rove, And seeth only that it cannot see The meeting eyes of love.” Two hours later, Dorothea was seated in an inner room or boudoir of a handsome apartment in the Via Sistina. I am sorry to add that she was sobbing bitterly, with such abandonment to this relief of an oppressed heart as a woman habitually controlled by pride on her own account and thoughtfulness for others will sometimes allow herself when she feels securely alone. And Mr. Casaubon was certain to remain away for some time at the Vatican. Yet Dorothea had no distinctly shapen grievance that she could state even to herself; and in the midst of her confused thought and passion, the mental act that was struggling forth into clearness was a self-accusing cry that her feeling of desolation was the fault of her own spiritual poverty. She had married the man of her choice, and with the advantage over most girls that she had contemplated her marriage chiefly as the beginning of new duties: from the very first she had thought of Mr. Casaubon as having a mind so much above her own, that he must often be claimed by studies which she could not entirely share; moreover, after the brief narrow experience of her girlhood she was beholding Rome, the city of visible history, where the past of a whole hemisphere seems moving in funeral procession with strange ancestral...
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Summary
Five weeks into their Roman honeymoon, Dorothea sits alone in their apartment, sobbing with the crushing realization that her marriage is nothing like she imagined. The grandeur of Rome, which should inspire her, instead feels overwhelming and alien. Her husband Casaubon treats the city's wonders like a dusty catalog, speaking about art and history with mechanical detachment rather than passion. Dorothea yearns for intellectual and emotional connection, but Casaubon remains distant, more concerned with his scholarly reputation than his wife's feelings. When she finally breaks down and begs him to finish his great work—to make his vast knowledge useful to the world—he responds with cold anger, accusing her of shallow judgment. The fight reveals the fundamental mismatch between them: she craves warmth and shared purpose, while he needs admiration without challenge. Both are shocked by their mutual hostility, but neither knows how to bridge the gap. Dorothea's romantic dreams of supporting a great mind are crashing against the reality of living with a man who sees her enthusiasm as threatening rather than supportive. The chapter captures the devastating moment when newlyweds realize they've married strangers, and how pride prevents the vulnerability needed to truly know each other.
That's what happens. To understand what the author is really doing—and to discuss this chapter with confidence—keep reading.
Terms to Know
Boudoir
A woman's private sitting room or bedroom, typically elegant and comfortable. In the 19th century, this was where upper-class women could retreat from public expectations and be themselves. It represents a space of female privacy and emotional release.
Modern Usage:
Today we might call this your bedroom, home office, or any private space where you can finally let your guard down after a long day.
Via Sistina
A prestigious street in Rome near the Spanish Steps. Mentioning this specific location shows the Casaubons are staying in an expensive, fashionable area. It emphasizes their wealth and social status while Dorothea feels emotionally impoverished.
Modern Usage:
Like staying in a penthouse suite but feeling completely alone - external luxury can't fix internal emptiness.
The Vatican
The center of the Catholic Church and home to incredible art collections. For scholars like Casaubon, it represents access to rare manuscripts and historical documents. His frequent visits there show his priorities lie with research, not his new wife.
Modern Usage:
Today it would be like a workaholic spouse always at the office or library, choosing career advancement over relationship building.
Spiritual poverty
Dorothea's term for feeling emotionally and intellectually starved despite her privileged circumstances. She blames herself for not finding fulfillment in her marriage, thinking she lacks the depth to appreciate her husband's greatness.
Modern Usage:
When you have everything you thought you wanted but still feel empty inside, and you blame yourself for being ungrateful.
Funeral procession
Dorothea sees Rome's ancient history as overwhelming and death-like rather than inspiring. The metaphor suggests she feels buried under the weight of the past and her failed expectations.
Modern Usage:
When something that should be exciting feels suffocating instead - like a dream job that turns into a nightmare.
Honeymoon period
The early phase of marriage traditionally spent traveling and getting to know each other intimately. Dorothea's Roman honeymoon is revealing painful truths about her husband's character and their incompatibility.
Modern Usage:
That phase in any new relationship when reality starts replacing fantasy, and you realize you might not know this person at all.
Characters in This Chapter
Dorothea
Protagonist in crisis
She's having a complete emotional breakdown, realizing her marriage is nothing like she imagined. Her tears show the gap between her romantic ideals and harsh reality. She's starting to see that her husband views her enthusiasm as annoying rather than supportive.
Modern Equivalent:
The woman who married her professor thinking it would be intellectually stimulating, only to find he treats her like a student, not an equal partner.
Mr. Casaubon
Emotionally distant husband
Though physically absent from this scene, his coldness dominates Dorothea's thoughts. He's more invested in his scholarly reputation than in connecting with his wife. His anger at her suggestions reveals his insecurity and need for unquestioning admiration.
Modern Equivalent:
The academic or professional who needs constant validation but can't handle any input from their spouse, treating marriage like having a fan rather than a partner.
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches how to identify when conflicts stem from mismatched assumptions rather than actual incompatibility.
Practice This Today
This week, notice when you feel disappointed by someone's behavior—ask yourself what you expected them to do, and whether you ever communicated that expectation clearly.
You have the foundation. Now let's look closer.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"A child forsaken, waking suddenly, Whose gaze afeard on all things round doth rove, And seeth only that it cannot see The meeting eyes of love."
Context: The chapter's opening epigraph that perfectly captures Dorothea's emotional state
This poem summarizes Dorothea's situation perfectly - she's like an abandoned child looking desperately for love and connection but finding only emptiness. The 'meeting eyes of love' she cannot see represents the emotional intimacy missing from her marriage.
In Today's Words:
When you're surrounded by people but feel completely alone because no one really sees or understands you.
"She had married the man of her choice, and with the advantage over most girls that she had contemplated her marriage chiefly as the beginning of new duties"
Context: Explaining Dorothea's mindset when she entered marriage
This shows how Dorothea approached marriage as a noble mission rather than a romantic relationship. She wanted to serve a great cause through supporting her husband's work, but she's discovering that duty without mutual affection is hollow.
In Today's Words:
She thought marriage would be like joining an important team where she could make a real difference, but instead she's just expected to cheer from the sidelines.
"Her feeling of desolation was the fault of her own spiritual poverty"
Context: Dorothea blaming herself for her unhappiness
This reveals how Dorothea turns her disappointment inward, assuming she's not sophisticated enough to appreciate her husband's greatness. It's a common pattern where people blame themselves for relationship problems that aren't entirely their fault.
In Today's Words:
She convinced herself that feeling miserable was her own fault for not being deep enough to get it.
Intelligence Amplifier™ Analysis
The Road of Mismatched Expectations
When people enter relationships with different, unspoken expectations, both feel betrayed and neither gets their needs met.
Thematic Threads
Marriage Reality
In This Chapter
Dorothea's romantic vision of intellectual partnership crashes against Casaubon's need for quiet admiration
Development
Introduced here - the honeymoon period ends with brutal clarity about who they actually married
In Your Life:
You might recognize this when your excitement about a new relationship, job, or living situation suddenly turns to confusion and disappointment
Pride
In This Chapter
Both Dorothea and Casaubon respond to conflict with defensive anger rather than vulnerable honesty about their needs
Development
Building from earlier chapters where pride drove their initial attraction and decision to marry
In Your Life:
You see this when you'd rather be 'right' than understood, choosing arguments over admitting you might have misread a situation
Communication Failure
In This Chapter
Neither spouse can express their true needs - she begs him to finish his work, he accuses her of shallow judgment
Development
Introduced here - their first major fight reveals how poorly they understand each other
In Your Life:
This appears when you're fighting about surface issues while the real problem - unmet expectations - goes unspoken
Intellectual Isolation
In This Chapter
Casaubon's scholarly work becomes a barrier between them rather than a bridge, leaving Dorothea feeling shut out
Development
Developing from his earlier secretiveness about his research into active rejection of her interest
In Your Life:
You might experience this when someone uses their expertise or passion as a way to maintain distance rather than create connection
Identity Crisis
In This Chapter
Dorothea questions who she is and what she wants when her role as supportive intellectual partner is rejected
Development
Building from her earlier search for meaningful purpose into confusion about her place in marriage
In Your Life:
This hits when a major life change makes you question your sense of self and what you actually want versus what you thought you wanted
Modern Adaptation
When the Promotion Goes Sideways
Following Dorothy's story...
Five weeks into her promotion to shift supervisor at the nursing home, Maya sits in her car during lunch break, crying. She'd imagined leading a team that would revolutionize patient care—implementing new protocols, mentoring younger CNAs, making a real difference. Instead, she spends her days doing paperwork, mediating petty conflicts, and defending budget cuts to her staff. When she tries to propose improvements, the administrator dismisses her as 'too idealistic.' Her former colleagues now see her as management, treating her with suspicion instead of the camaraderie she'd hoped to maintain. Yesterday, when she passionately presented a plan to reduce patient falls, her boss responded with irritation about 'staying in her lane' and 'understanding the bigger picture.' Maya realizes she wanted to be a leader who inspired change, while the facility wanted a supervisor who would enforce compliance without rocking the boat. Both feel betrayed—Maya thought leadership meant innovation, while her boss expected quiet efficiency. The promotion she'd dreamed about feels like a trap, and she doesn't know how to bridge the gap between her vision and their reality.
The Road
The road Dorothea walked in 1871, Maya walks today. The pattern is identical: two people enter a relationship with completely different expectations, and when reality doesn't match their internal scripts, both feel betrayed and blame the other for 'changing.'
The Map
Maya can use radical honesty about expectations as her navigation tool. Before accepting future opportunities, she needs to explicitly ask what success looks like to the other party and clearly state her own vision.
Amplification
Before reading this, Maya might have assumed her boss was deliberately sabotaging her vision or that she'd failed as a leader. Now she can NAME the pattern of mismatched expectations, PREDICT that defensive responses will create more distance, and NAVIGATE by having honest conversations about what each party actually wants.
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
What specific moment reveals that Dorothea and Casaubon have completely different ideas about what their marriage should be?
analysis • surface - 2
Why does Casaubon react with anger when Dorothea encourages him to finish his work, even though she's trying to be supportive?
analysis • medium - 3
Where do you see this pattern of mismatched expectations playing out in modern workplaces, friendships, or family relationships?
application • medium - 4
If you were counseling this couple, what conversation should they have had before getting married to prevent this crisis?
application • deep - 5
What does this chapter reveal about how pride prevents us from getting the relationships we actually want?
reflection • deep
Critical Thinking Exercise
Map Your Relationship Expectations
Think of an important relationship in your life (romantic partner, boss, friend, family member). Write down what you expect from them and what you think they expect from you. Then honestly assess: have you ever explicitly discussed these expectations, or are you both just assuming you're on the same page?
Consider:
- •Most relationship conflicts stem from unspoken expectations, not actual incompatibility
- •We often assume others show and receive love/respect the same way we do
- •Pride makes us defend our expectations instead of examining whether they're realistic or fair
Journaling Prompt
Write about a time when you felt disappointed by someone's behavior, then realized you had expected something you never actually asked for. How could that situation have been handled differently?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 21: When Illusions Begin to Crack
As the story unfolds, you'll explore to recognize when someone is trying to undermine your relationships, while uncovering defending those we love can reveal our own doubts. These lessons connect the classic to contemporary challenges we all face.