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CHAPTER X “Does it ever happen to you,” said Natásha to her brother, when they settled down in the sitting room, “does it ever happen to you to feel as if there were nothing more to come—nothing; that everything good is past? And to feel not exactly dull, but sad?” “I should think so!” he replied. “I have felt like that when everything was all right and everyone was cheerful. The thought has come into my mind that I was already tired of it all, and that we must all die. Once in the regiment I had not gone to some merrymaking where there was music... and suddenly I felt so depressed...” “Oh yes, I know, I know, I know!” Natásha interrupted him. “When I was quite little that used to be so with me. Do you remember when I was punished once about some plums? You were all dancing, and I sat sobbing in the schoolroom? I shall never forget it: I felt sad and sorry for everyone, for myself, and for everyone. And I was innocent—that was the chief thing,” said Natásha. “Do you remember?” “I remember,” answered Nicholas. “I remember that I came to you afterwards and wanted to comfort you, but do you know, I felt ashamed to. We were terribly absurd. I had a funny doll then and wanted to give it to you. Do you remember?” “And do you remember,” Natásha asked with a pensive smile, “how once, long, long ago, when we were...
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Summary
Natasha and Nicholas share a profound conversation about melancholy and childhood memories, revealing how siblings can understand each other's deepest feelings. They recall mysterious shared experiences—like seeing a Negro in their uncle's study—that may have been dreams but feel completely real. Their discussion turns philosophical as they wonder about souls, eternity, and whether they existed before birth. Natasha suggests they were once angels, while Sonya mentions reincarnation. The intimate moment is interrupted when Natasha is called to sing, and her beautiful performance moves everyone to tears, especially her mother who worries about Natasha's intense nature. The evening transforms when mummers (costumed servants) arrive for Christmas festivities. The young people dress up in elaborate disguises—Nicholas as an old lady, Natasha as a hussar, Sonya as a Circassian with a mustache—and decide to visit neighbors in sleighs. The moonlit troyka ride becomes magical and dreamlike, with Nicholas barely recognizing his companions in their costumes. The familiar landscape seems enchanted under the full moon, and ordinary people become mysterious strangers. This chapter shows how life oscillates between deep introspection and joyful abandon, how shared memories bind us together, and how breaking from routine can make the world feel new again.
That's what happens. To understand what the author is really doing—and to discuss this chapter with confidence—keep reading.
Terms to Know
Melancholy
A deep, thoughtful sadness that isn't depression but a philosophical awareness of life's fleeting nature. In Tolstoy's time, this was seen as a mark of sensitivity and depth, especially among the educated class.
Modern Usage:
We call it 'existential dread' or those Sunday night feelings when you wonder what the point of it all is.
Mummers
Costumed performers who went house to house during Christmas season, often servants or young people in elaborate disguises. This was a traditional Russian holiday custom that broke down social barriers temporarily.
Modern Usage:
Like Halloween trick-or-treaters or Christmas carolers, but with more elaborate costumes and role-playing.
Troyka
A traditional Russian sleigh pulled by three horses arranged side by side. The middle horse trots while the outer two gallop, creating a distinctive rhythm and speed.
Modern Usage:
Think of it as the luxury sports car of winter transportation in 19th century Russia.
Hussar
A type of light cavalry soldier known for their flashy, colorful uniforms with braids, fur hats, and military flair. Hussars were considered dashing and romantic figures.
Modern Usage:
Like dressing up as a Navy SEAL or fighter pilot - the glamorous military costume that screams 'hero.'
Circassian
People from the Caucasus region known for their distinctive dress and warrior culture. In Russian society, Circassian costumes were exotic and mysterious, often used in masquerades.
Modern Usage:
Like someone dressing up as a ninja or samurai - foreign, mysterious, and exciting to the local culture.
Reincarnation
The belief that souls are reborn into new bodies after death. Though not part of Orthodox Christianity, educated Russians were exposed to Eastern philosophy and often discussed such ideas.
Modern Usage:
Still a popular spiritual concept today, especially among people exploring alternative beliefs or past-life regression.
Characters in This Chapter
Natasha
Introspective young woman
She initiates the deep conversation about melancholy and childhood memories, showing her philosophical nature. Later transforms into a playful performer, revealing her ability to shift between profound thought and joyful abandon.
Modern Equivalent:
The friend who texts you deep thoughts at midnight then shows up to karaoke in full costume
Nicholas
Understanding brother
He immediately connects with Natasha's melancholy, sharing his own military experience of sudden sadness. He becomes an enthusiastic participant in the mummers' festivities, showing his adaptable nature.
Modern Equivalent:
The brother who actually listens and gets your weird moods, then joins your crazy plans
Sonya
Practical companion
She joins the philosophical conversation by mentioning reincarnation, then participates in the costume festivities. She represents the balance between thoughtfulness and social participation.
Modern Equivalent:
The friend who reads self-help books but still shows up for girls' night out
Countess Rostova
Worried mother
She's moved to tears by Natasha's singing, recognizing both her daughter's talent and intensity. Her emotional response shows a mother's concern for a child who feels everything deeply.
Modern Equivalent:
The mom who's proud but worried because her kid is 'too sensitive for this world'
Why This Matters
Connect literature to life
This chapter teaches how breaking from routine creates space for authentic connection and personal insight.
Practice This Today
This week, notice when your deepest conversations happen—probably not during scheduled 'serious talks' but in cars, during walks, or late at night when normal roles are suspended.
You have the foundation. Now let's look closer.
Key Quotes & Analysis
"Does it ever happen to you to feel as if there were nothing more to come—nothing; that everything good is past?"
Context: She's asking Nicholas about experiencing melancholy for no apparent reason
This captures the universal human experience of existential sadness that strikes even during good times. It shows Natasha's depth and her need to connect with others about life's big questions.
In Today's Words:
Do you ever get that feeling like all the good stuff in life is behind you and there's nothing left to look forward to?
"I should think so! I have felt like that when everything was all right and everyone was cheerful."
Context: His immediate response to Natasha's question about melancholy
Nicholas validates that this feeling isn't about external circumstances but something deeper. His quick understanding shows the bond between siblings who truly get each other.
In Today's Words:
Oh absolutely! I get depressed even when everything's going great and everyone around me is happy.
"And I was innocent—that was the chief thing."
Context: Remembering being punished as a child for something involving plums
This reveals how childhood injustices shape us and how the feeling of being misunderstood can create lasting melancholy. It shows Natasha's strong sense of fairness and justice.
In Today's Words:
The worst part was that I didn't even do anything wrong.
Intelligence Amplifier™ Analysis
The Road of Sacred Interruption - How Breaking Routine Reveals Truth
Meaningful connections and insights emerge when we deliberately break from familiar routines and roles.
Thematic Threads
Identity
In This Chapter
Characters literally disguise themselves, becoming unrecognizable even to close family members
Development
Builds on earlier themes of social roles by showing how identity can be fluid and transformative
In Your Life:
You might notice how differently you act and feel when you're in an unfamiliar environment or role
Memory
In This Chapter
Natasha and Nicholas share mysterious childhood memories that may have been dreams but feel completely real
Development
Introduced here as exploration of how shared experiences bond people beyond logic
In Your Life:
You might recognize how certain memories with siblings or close friends feel more real than documented facts
Connection
In This Chapter
Deep philosophical conversation between siblings about souls and existence, followed by communal joy
Development
Continues the theme of authentic relationships transcending social boundaries
In Your Life:
You might find your most meaningful conversations happen in unexpected moments, not planned heart-to-hearts
Wonder
In This Chapter
Familiar landscape becomes magical and dreamlike under moonlight and through costume play
Development
Introduced here as counterbalance to the novel's focus on social realism
In Your Life:
You might notice how changing your perspective or routine can make ordinary places feel completely new
Social Expectations
In This Chapter
Characters temporarily abandon their prescribed roles through disguise and play
Development
Evolves from earlier rigid social structures to show moments of liberation are possible
In Your Life:
You might feel most free and authentic when you're away from people who have fixed expectations of you
Modern Adaptation
When the Night Shift Gets Weird
Following Andrew's story...
Andrew and his sister Maya are working the overnight shift at the warehouse, talking during their break about childhood memories that might have been dreams. They remember seeing the same strange man in their grandmother's basement, but can't figure out if it really happened. The conversation gets deep—about souls, about whether they knew each other before they were born. Then the regular crew shows up in Halloween costumes for the night shift party. Andrew ends up dressed as a woman, Maya as a construction worker, their coworker as a vampire. They pile into someone's pickup truck to hit the all-night diner across town. Under the streetlights, everyone looks different, mysterious. The familiar route feels like driving through a movie. Andrew realizes he hasn't felt this alive in months—not since he started obsessing over finding his 'purpose.' Sometimes the purpose finds you when you're just being human.
The Road
The road Natasha walked in 1812, Andrew walks today. The pattern is identical: authentic connection happens when we step outside our normal roles and routines.
The Map
This chapter provides a map for creating sacred interruptions—moments when breaking from routine opens space for deeper connection and wonder.
Amplification
Before reading this, Andrew might have dismissed playfulness as a waste of time while searching for meaning. Now he can NAME sacred interruption, PREDICT when routine blocks connection, NAVIGATE toward wonder.
You now have the context. Time to form your own thoughts.
Discussion Questions
- 1
What transforms the ordinary evening into something magical for Natasha and Nicholas?
analysis • surface - 2
Why do the siblings connect most deeply during their late-night conversation, rather than during regular family time?
analysis • medium - 3
When have you experienced your most honest conversations or strongest connections with family or friends - was it during planned activities or unexpected moments?
application • medium - 4
How might you deliberately create 'sacred interruptions' in your routine to allow for deeper connection and wonder?
application • deep - 5
What does this chapter suggest about the relationship between breaking from routine and discovering authentic parts of ourselves?
reflection • deep
Critical Thinking Exercise
Design Your Sacred Interruption
Think about your current weekly routine - work, family time, household tasks. Identify one small way you could break the pattern this week to create space for deeper connection or personal wonder. This isn't about major life changes, but small disruptions that might shift perspective. Plan something specific: a different location for a conversation, an unusual activity with someone you care about, or a simple change that takes you outside normal roles.
Consider:
- •Consider what roles or expectations you might temporarily set aside
- •Think about settings that naturally encourage different kinds of conversation
- •Notice how stepping outside routine might reveal new aspects of familiar relationships
Journaling Prompt
Write about a time when an unexpected disruption to your routine led to a meaningful moment or new insight. What made that interruption different from your usual experience?
Coming Up Next...
Chapter 143: Masks Off, Hearts Revealed
What lies ahead teaches us playful disguises can reveal hidden truths about ourselves and others, and shows us the power of stepping outside social roles to discover authentic connections. These patterns appear in literature and life alike.